Result...

i hate my result...
eventually ,i can't find a reason why I hate it so much
actually...i am afraid of it
''hate'' is what to mention it, is just an excuse
everything suddenly disappear in front of my eyes when i heard my result
i don wan 2 mention again
is hard for me 2 stand up once ...to receive the damn news
is worst than wat i predicted
my math didn't score well
didn't score well ? wat m i talking about huh ?
it was worst ! damn worst
calculation is the most annoying thing 4 me
arithmetic ... math...
i say goodbye 2 them
this can count the most painful
i'm disappointed of myself
i feel regrat 4 my result
regrat ? is too late for now....
the result was oredy told...
other friends of mine didn't noe there'r injured that curse on me
i cant even look at myself , i don wan 2 look at a depress and a sorrow face
i don wan 2 look at the result , b'caz all i can c is juz a piece of paper dat is meaningless
i wish dat it can turn into dust , fly away dat me myself cant even c it ever

i noe ... how sadness i m now...
is stil cant even change it
wat m i surpose 2 do ?
be skilful on my musical life ?
i don think i can ...
even my past piano exam fail....
other ppl said : keep study harder 4 next samester !
i almost forgot...i stil can count on 2nd samester
but...this result....
is a sign 2 show me how worst m i
how damn is my brain
how terrible is it....
this result will mark my grave...
dats y....i'm affraid of it...

now i cant imagine d next exam...
i don even wan 2 think of it...
now i'm thinking of....embarassment...
so far so bad ...
there'r not even a "good"
m i going 2 study harder ?
i dunno i can or not....
life is full of choises....isn't it ?
even is a small thing oso hav 2 think more than twice....
chinese proverb : 三思后而行
but i don understand....
even me myself cant understand...
y study harder is a question 2 me....
n where is d answer ?

i'm stil think of it...